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Actually, the drawings were for my family, so they weren't really belated at all, but I thought - since I didn't get to join the HoHoHo-fest - that I'd upload these for you guys too!
Beatiful drawings after the cut! ( Cut )
Current mood:
accomplished.Current music: The City - Joe Purdy.
My mother just told me that I should be careful of how much I speak of my "fascination of gay men" to my boyfriend. WTF?
Am I wierd? Is that what's going on here? She said that it wasn't just her, that they have been discussing this in the family, and that it is an "unnatural fascination"... I don't know how to take this. Does my family now think I'm insane just because they can't see how beautiful (not to mention hot) it is to see two men kissing and being involved in romantic relationships? Has the world gone mad? I have always taught myself that whatever is going on, whatever new thing you discover about yourself, especially if it makes you different from the people around you, you need to accept it. Because being disgusted and embarrassed of yourself and trying to ignore it doesn't bring anything but pain and bad feelings. Good or bad, you need to accept it. And to people who don't know me and think I'm refferring to some kind of coming-out, I'm not. I'm straight and until now that hasn't changed. On the other hand I do have a handicap that I have spent most of my life fighting against, trying to be like everyone else, swimming upstream to keep up. It's exhausting. And I don't want to do it anymore. It's too much of a hassle to be someone I'm not and to do what I can't do. Life is short! Live out your passions! That is, unless your passion involves hurting others, because then I'm off your track :)
The only thing is that it can be lonely when you can't tell the people around you about something exciting that just happened to you, because you know that they can't see it. Instead they look at you like... like you're still a kid, and you get all excited about what's going to happen in the next chapter of the book that is read to you every night. Except you're not a kid. And I don't know if it's just me, but I'm pretty sure I'm picking up some exasperation and...pity in their eyes. Like, yeah, that's all fine and good, but when are you going to get out into the real world? Get a job? Watch the news? Grow up? And even with all my walls up around me, I still feel like crumbling a little bit. Because it IS hard to be the one in the family that everyone is worried about. Especially when they are already worried about so many other things in my life!
I know who I am. I have accepted it. And in here, I feel like I fit in. I meet others like me, and I can defend the cause with flying colours. But when I step away from the computer, out there... Back to being excentric...
Current mood:
aggravated.Current music: Star Trek New Generation.
Current mood:
annoyed.
Ok, this might be...i don't know...but I have to write it down.
I LOVE AWZ. You know that. And I am so grateful that I have found a community like the eskimos. I love being part of the discussions, the analyses, commenting cleverly on the vids, watching on the homepage, twittering on Twitter, reading/writing fanfic, watching fanvids and -pics and getting invested in the lives of (some of) the people on screen. You have all been so warm and welcoming to me and seemingly to every person who enter this community.
So why can't I find a VL room like that? I love DeRo, but I'm a Chrolli-fan too. I'm not ashamed to admit it! And I'm not going to try to deny the fact that compared to AWZ, VL CAN be boring. While AWZ is funny, quirky and surprising, VL is amusing, traditional and predictable. But sometimes you want that. Sometimes, when you watch a proposal, for example, you WANT the gooey, sappy girly crap that's been pounded into you to hate. Sometimes you want freaking roses and candles and moonlight, damn it! And that's what VL can provide.
While DeRo for me is the current, impulsive, exciting, butterflies-in-the-stomach kind of love, Chrolli was the first. My first love. The one that was, and always is, comforting, familiar and safe. The one you go to to when the world doesn't make sense. And you don't just let go of that. Believe me, I've tried. They had a loooong period where the writers nearly ruined them, in my opinion. Every day I'd tell myself that I was done with that show and that I would stop watching. Or at least only watch on YouTube as opposed to their homepage. But suffice to say, it didn't work. Because instead of ignoring the show (which in my mind was the closest I could come to punishing it) I started to get angry with it. And my anger grew to a point where I wasn't even able to meet family members (who DOESN'T watch the show, FYI) without spewing out long angry rants! (Christine, you'll remember this!) Like it or not, I was stuck with that show.
The problem is that even though I LOVE the show and the couple, I can't stand the community. It's all filled with empty-headed 14-year-olds (at least at heart) who... Remember the problem we had at AWZ when Marc came along? With the "DeRo 4EVA" people? Yeah, this is them times four! I would say that at least 60% of the comments on Nanna's videos are either "Thore is so hot", "Chrolli 4EVA" or a very popular debate about whether or not they are gay in real life... Seriously?!?! I am a very analyzing person. Ask anyone. I spend most of my waking hours analyzing myself. So when I watch VL of course I want to comment! Just like I do on EKP's videos. But I don't want to waste it on the idiots in there. I want to share it with people who can see where I'm coming from. Who can argue with me and get me to see their point of view. But where can I go? I could write it down for myself, but that would be almost as pointless as writing it among those people. I could write to a friend who I know is also a Chrolli-lover, and I do that sometimes, but I feel kind of obnoxious after a while if I only write to her to complain. I really wish I could come in here. Because right here are the people I need. The kind of people who argue back (with a passion). Who makes me laugh while making me see exactly what they mean and who can describe (because they know) the frustration you can feel about a show, storyline and/or a character, or several. The only problem is that most of you don't like VL or watch it. And I'm not asking you to. I am only asking that if there are people out there who recognize this problem about VL and their (mostly) stupid demographic....raise your hand and maybe we can start a place of our own here on IJ :)
(ok, I don't know if I made sense here... It's 5 o'clock in the morning here and I haven't slept all night....
Current mood:
indescribable.Current music: My cats burrowing into cardboard boxes.
I've been thinking that since I've seen some of you talk Buffy, I thought I would give it a try. Again.
So the last time I saw this show I was about 13 and I hadn't yet figured out how to watch tv-shows online, so when school, homework and life got in the way and the channel stopped sending the show, I also stopped watching. And I've always been one of those people who believe that if you're going to watch a tv-show, you should watch all the episodes, and in the right order, so now that I've decided to give this teenage vampire slayer another shot I've of course decided to watch from the beginning. And here's where my problem comes in: Please tell me it gets better! I mean:
Buffy: "My philosophy, do you wanna hear my philosophy?"
Willow: "Yeah, I do!"
Buffy: "Life is short."
Willow: "Life is short?"
Buffy: "Not very original, I grant you, but it's true, you know? Why waste time being all shy and worrying about some guy, if he's gonna laugh at you. Sieze the moment. Because tomorrow you might be dead."
Willow: (looks admiring) "Oh that's nice!"
Buffy: (spotting a vampire under the roof) "Um... I'll be back."
Willow: "Oh, that's ok. You don't have to come back!"
Buffy: "I'll be back in a minute"
...
Willow: (really pondering) "Sieze the moment..."
Seriously?!
Please please please tell me it's worth watching this incredibly lame show with horrible acting, obviously-fake villains and abysmal writing! If there is good stuff coming then I need to know now, because otherwise I don't know how long I can keep up my patience for this...straight version of Dante's Cove (without the naked bodies)...
Current mood:
sore.Current music: disastrous Buffy dialogue.
Yay! I found another eskimo of nordic descent! And she's a Chrolli fan too! And she, like me, can't wait until monday, tuesday and wednesday, not to mention September!
The only slight problem is that I don't know how to squee in danish! There's no danish words that compares to "ranting", "sqeeing", "huggles" etc. etc. What's a girl to do?
Insane as well as genuine suggestions are welcome!
Current mood:
cheerful.
I'm not really here! I just popped in to see what you all have posted and to show you all a really strange, and therefore extremely funny dance from a danish comedy group called Ørkenens Sønner, aka. The Sons of the Desert!
Ta-ta!
I don't even know how to start this. She's just so... GAH.
I know I am handicapped. And that I have a disease (if that's what you depression), so I've gotten used to being treated in lots of different ways by people who don't know me, or my handicap, or dealing with my disease. Some people want to talk a lot, some just try to ignore the facts and yes, some talk to me like I'm a four-year-old. I can get used to that. When they defiantly look me in the eye and talk real slow-like, I can take a deep breath, smile and pity them and their ignorence. Like I said, THAT I can get used to. But THIS...
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Current mood:
angry.
Hey honey, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
After your song I wanted to retaliate, but since I don't have a particular song to listen to on this day, I did watch this movie A LOT today!
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Current mood:
giddy.
How many people in here have heard of McLeod's Daughters? If you do, then I hope you share my love for the characters of the show, especially Alex, Claire, Tess and Nick. If you haven't, then you really should check it out!
I'm have recently uploaded my 40th part of my storyline, called Drovers Run, covering the premier love stories on the show! And I'm just in here commercializing for it :D
I've uploaded the first parts and a resume to get you started on the story, and to see it ( click here! )
Current mood:
accomplished.Current music: Anne Linnet - Hva' har du set.